almost halloween

wow... so HI blog, been a while. Seems like life has been crazy busy of late. preparing for the impending doom at work , getting resume together and what not has eaten a lot of time. Costume preparation has eaten the rest. My costume is awesome this year. I'm being a parrot. Soon as i get my cam back i'll post some photos. Other wise the world moves on. Weather has turned cold of late, finally feels like winter is really coming. Yesterday was a perfect fall day, sunlight to the east and big grey clouds rolling in from the northwest and the wind just rattling the leaves down off the trees. I've been wearing socks again and the sandles have been stowed in my closet. I'd forgotten how much i like socks. been getting all my medical stuff taken care of before the final day at work. Got a mole taken off and so my arm's all stitched up. not too bad this time around though. Strangely at work, looks like they've decided to keep a small core group of about 20 on till mid next year to help with our market transition. They're going to announce who's made the cut next week. not sure how i feel about it. If it's offered to me i guess i'll take it, i've kinda gotten into moving on mode so would be a bit of a turn around. Still i'm unlikely to make the same amount i do now anywhere else. If it's not offered to me, not a big deal. I'm looking forward to a change. Am looking into school, got orientation on nov 22nd, gonna try to go for physical therapy. will mean another move in about 4 years, but that's ok. Well i gotta go put finishing touches on my costume! happy halloween all!!

status quo

well so i just got back from the eye doctor, got my eyes all diallated so please excuse any typos in this post. i can't actually make out what i'm writing. what a trip. luckily i mostly type by memory anyhow. so after an hour and a half of stinging eyedrops and stabbing beams of light my eye doctor has announced that there is really nothing wrong with my eyes other than the astigmatism they've always had. Well, he did say there were some teeny tiny spots that may 20-30 years down the line becine a cateract but right now they are only possibly causing minor refractions of light. No optic nerve damage, no neural palsys as far as he can tell. SO right back where i was before , not knowing what on earth is up with my double vision. Got blood work done when saw my primary dox and got a followup end of the month so i guess we'll see what she wants to do next. huzzah. Least i'm not going blind. till then though everything stays at the status quo, which to be honest, is livable. = )

secret diary needs a key

ive been wandering about the blogverse for a bit now and it always amazes me when people get all suprized about other people they know finding their little bit o the blogverse. ME i just don't write anything i don't want anyone else knowing ever... ever ...ever i learned my lesson long ago. to put things down on paper, be it traditional or electronic is asking for trouble. Anymore if i do chose to find a place of solitue for my thoughts i make sure it has no direct ties back to me. Never use names, never. Also if its solid matter it's written on it is destroyed once full. sounds weird and a little overly drastic , but some things are mine, and only mine and no one else ever ever ever gets to know they exist, even if it's something stupid, like a fear that's no big deal. As long as i don't leave them where people can find them, i never have to worry about ever being angry at them for reading them.

office space

ok so sometimes it gets very boring at work btwn calls , in order to keep my sanity intact i must find things to do to keep me occupied. lately this has been origami. lots and lots of paper folding. right now my favorite things to make are origami balls or origami flower boxes. also in the spirit of halloween i have invited a little family of spiders to live in my cubicle. cute aren't they.

singing in the rain on a sunny day

Sometimes the world just flows in rivers of sunlight and warmth around me, and if there is the slight frost of winter winding through those rivers, it is but a sweet foil to the bountiful warmth. Today I existed in a world of cascading wonder. Every color Distinct, sharply pressing against the boundries of the creatures that constrained them into solid shapes and immutable forms. I moved through an ocean of air quivering on edge of true autumn, no longer did it smell of the scorched burn of summer, but instead carried the first crisp hints of golden leaves and subtle smudge of chimmny smoke. The edges of my jacked tickled the skin of my fingers, which had long forgotten the feeling of long sleeves, making me laugh at the catterpillary sensations. The sound of my laughter danced briefly with the music pouring from my neighbors radio, where happy strains of Singing in the Rain lept from the window sill and swirled in the gilded air.